Of Course I'm Still Single!

Yeah, mean either. My thoughts are a lot snarkier.

You know when I first thought about this blog post topic I wanted to blame Corona for why I was still single.

But... considering who I am... that wouldn’t be fair to COVID-19.

Yeah, I’m still single and that’s probably because I don’t care to change. I am still incredibly irresponsible. You’d think a pandemic would change that right?

Nope, it just brought reality closer to home.

First off, I realized that I might go mad if I was at home right now as wife with some kids. If I ain’t ready to be responsible for a man, I am DEFINITELY NOT responsible enough to take care of some kids.

You know, I think this pandemic has really shown me that I am pretty much the way I was before. It’s not like I went out and met people before this... sooooo... not much has changed for me I guess LOL.

Relationships are going to be coming out of the wood work after this pandemic is over. People are probably going to be getting back together, meeting for the first time, asking each other out and all that other nonsense.

All of that sounds like too much work.

You ever been so happy to be free, you see a young couple and say to yourself “That’s so cute but thank God, that isn’t me?”

Yeah, mean either. My thoughts are a lot snarkier. Like “don’t get too invested, it prolly won’t last.” or “hehe, good luck with that!”

I’m still single, I’m not mad at it.

They (I don’t know specifically who... people I guess) say “It takes two people to build a successful relationship.” And I wholeheartedly agree with that as long as I am not one of those people.

Let me give you an honest moment of my time.

In all honesty, the reason I am so comfortable with being single is because first, I am not lonely and I don’t feel alone and I have God to thank for that. But I was also so happy to be delivered (that’s right, insert *praise break* here)

from my last relationship.

I realized that, that relationship had taken so much out of me. I spent time preparing to be this and that for another person, like many others have. I spent an asinine amount of time (especially considering my personality) caring for someone who I just realized never really intended to walk on his own. I made less and less time for myself tryna hold down somebody that wasn’t any good at doing the same for me.

When I got out I was happy and selfish and then I became happily selfish (yes, there's a difference).

Now please don’t take this opportunity to diagnose me with your thoughts. I know where I'm at. Oh and please don't say things like “oh you’re not irresponsible, you’re just hurt” or rubbish like that.

GAG!

#johnnydepp #piratesofthecaribbean

Turns out happy selfishness can turn into irresponsible thoughts, habits, and feelings. And guess what, it feels great, which is why I am comfortably settled just as I am.

If you don’t wanna cook for somebody, clean for somebody, or be his/her emotional support, I get it. Take time for yourself and/or rant irresponsibly to whomever you want about whatever you want. It’s your life and you get to decide how irresponsible you are going to be.

No judgement here.

Will it ever change? Who knows? And more importantly, who cares?

I know I don’t!

You know what I'm gonna say...

Rant irresponsibly!

Yours Truly,

Irresponsibly Single